My summer has been my internal winter, as my inner shadow work continues. I woke dreaming of flower blossoms on a tree, a sign of my internal springtime coming. Summer for me is about making money in a restaurant and getting a rest from the challenge of being me. I have the feelings of being fed-up, tired, ready to give up on my dreams and go back to a comfort zone life, and dealing with these feelings as the hot summer months exasperate a medical condition that I have, that is in need of a surgery that I cannot afford. The challenge of finding solutions, yes and looking at my shadows with compassion, for integration and healing. To be a Twin Flame on the ascension path doing shadow work, I am in the thick of it; with the challenge of not pushing it aside. Healing my womb space is all about unblocking my creative flow, for my feminine side, and embracing my personal power, for my masculine side. My internal winter is calling me to defrost my frozen emotions and let things flow again, to water and nurture the new buds of spring. Perhaps by next spring I will be ready to spring forth and start interacting with my Twin Flame, but for now he is probably just as not ready for this, as I am; an internal winter for us both, I hear from the inner self. The push for transformation is getting uncomfortable, as I break through my stubborn resistance to reach for the Light. Will I prepare for the birth of my dreams? That is the question and the challenge.
From my Guidebook, Twin Flame Wisdom Oracle:
Healing The Womb Space:
Healing your Goddess within you of all karmic knots and imbalances from all timelines and dimensions can be accomplished through your clear intention. Discover what your imbalances are through your relationship with your second chakra. With courage and conviction, clear up old patterns of abandonment and betrayal that may be deeply laden within your second chakra. Once you clear this chakra, nourish it with care by expressing your creative self and sensual self. Honor your womb and be empowered through deep nurturing self-love. While your sacral center is calling to you in need, observe your thoughts. They are the telltale signs of your transient weaknesses waiting to be transformed into strength. As you allow each of these thoughts to be recognized as fruitful, you will understand the temptation to remain in the ways of old. What are you being urged to do? Look within your sacred creations to actualize your dreams of truth. In this center lies the dormant potential of personal power. As you acknowledge this creative calling, you will realize the power is within you to choose your fate. Destiny is not at the mercy of the wind. You have a choice as to how you focus your energy. Now is the time to unfold your beautiful flower of Divine Femininity. Reject this power no longer and realize the potential that awaits you in this very sacred center of rebirth. As you clear the way
for new creations and sacred Divine Union, so do you clear the outworn patterns taking up residence in your womb. Think no longer of the past. Release old toxic thoughts through forgiveness and compassion, and embrace the concept of a life lived as choice. You hold the flower, the rose, which has been placed in your womb for conscious creation, and only you can coerce it to bloom.
Fear not, for this power is what will bring you grace and open the passageway for unending love of thyself. This love is the radiant beauty of the Divine Feminine, waiting to be activated for your special role in this lifetime. This opportunity is one that will afford you many options, if you choose them. Be motherly, and nurture your creations with love. See not what is causing disharmony, choose only to see that which brings you joy. Joy is your connection to creativity and true power. Use this dormant power to unblock your destiny. Joy heals faster than any modality. Go deep in peace and choose your hearts’ calling.
Unconditional Love, this card came up again, for my Sunday Twin Flame Message. I know that I picked it a few weeks ago. I am having a lot coming up in my reality about being ignored and unappreciated. It is quite possibly my deepest wound, and probably one of the biggest wounds for the feminine collective. It is being reflected back to me almost every day. I keep trying to get people to listen to me (in the form of wisdom I have to share) and the more I try the more I am ignored. Could it be that I am not reaching for unconditional love, which is the only way to heal this? Well, of course.... but easier said than done. Unconditional Love can be so elusive when you are caught in the pattern of feeling hurt and resentful over the thing that is hurting you, and in my case, being ignored. My mind is full of thoughts about humans that do get all the attention, and why they do. Again, I see charismatic and physically beautiful people as the type of people that get all the attention. When I have wisdom to share that could really help someone, there is always this person there, who is louder than me expressing an opinion that is heard and received, while I receive nothing. This is a reflection of my wounded child that was so drowned out as a child, through living with two very narcissistic females, one sister and my mother. The words “cannot get a word in edgewise” must have been tattooed on my tattered heart, and this tattoo cannot be removed so easily. My Twin Flame is another person that has reflected this wound back to me, in full force. He is so charismatic with people all over the globe just waiting with anticipation for the next piece of wisdom he might share. I have wisdom to share, but this popularity contest of human existence is far beyond it's expiration date, in the reality. I am fed up and I want to break free of the desire to be heard, because this desire is deeply rooted in my wounding. I must unconditionally love the people who ignore me. I repeat, I must unconditionally love the people who ignore me. I have so much to share with the world, but I must release my attachment to being successful at that. Furthermore, we are living in confusing times where everyone has an opinion and advice to give. This is amplified for myself, because most of my friends in the New Age community have a business that is related to healing, and yet they themselves are not healed. Having unconditional love for all this wounded confusion, that is on my plate. I also need to give up the attachment I have to my physical Twin Flame because he may never acknowledge me in this lifetime. I can connect to another aspects of my Twin Flame, the higher dimensional aspect of him who is not in a physical body on the planet. He will listen to me; he does appreciate me, but I currently cannot hear or feel him with the noise of my wounded heart crying out to me. This is my Sunday Twin Flame message. I hope it helps someone. I know it has helped myself, for having processed it, through this writing. If no one reads this then so be it. It does not matter. What matters of my success in feeling unconditional love for my wounded self and other wounded people. On the other side of the coin, my Twin Flame probably has his own problems with being the one that everyone chases after, as if he was their instant fix. So deep is this human charade. The song for this post, 'This Masquerade' by George Benson, and it's about the broken talking stick of my tribe, as it feels like no one is listening to each other. I pray for more strength to love, to really love, and forgive. All will be well, eventually. Big hugs to the ignored or underappreciated, everywhere. I know how you feel.
My Twin Flame message of this Sunday corresponds to my morning dream. I was connecting with the Shiva energy through a dream message. In my dream I was not seeing my physical form while looking into a mirror in the bathroom. I was pure consciousness, not the physical form, and yet at the same time I have a physical form. The two primary forces named ‘Shiva’ and ‘Shakti’ are permanently in an indestructible union. The Shakti energy, (female) was represented in my dream through the dream message of me entering a pool of water. I thought to myself, why are my shoes and clothes on? Again, it was not about my physical form entering water.
Perhaps your Kundalini awakening is close by for you, and coming soon. Perhaps a Kundalini experience of Divine Union involves embracing the mysterious and unknown. In my dream my human self felt the same loneliness it has always felt, by always being alone, and yet I was OK with this. I was seeing a potential sexual partner leaving the building as I looked out the window, symbolic of my desire for a deeper, more meaningful spiritual and sexual experience. Tantric sex is not about two people desiring a regular sexual encounter. It is the two dimensions of life waiting to converge in a divine union within. The Shiva and Shakti union of Twin Flames holds so much power and gentleness, and it feels completely mysterious.
As mundane existence surrounds you, you don't care for it any more. I felt invisible to the other people around me, in my dream. So be it. I am living a Twin Flame Journey.
The divine masculine energy as I experienced last night represented 'the death energy'..... it's part of the process and the feminine assists with patience and compassion. The card picked today, with blues and stars also confirmed the energy of soothing our masculine as he is not separate but one with us. You are experiencing the death energy through your own masculine energy within, and through your Twin Flame. You can connect with the Universe and your Twin Flame through dream-weaving and deep refection. The Death Energy brings new birth...... keep the faith and keep breathing deep. Hugs for your masculine, as he is deep in his pain, to transmute it. Here is a FREE PDF of the guidebook for this deck:
We are gathering on Monday nights from 7pm to 10pm in a private home, in Mount Shasta City. Join us if you feel called to. Visit the Facebook Page: Shasta Glow for more details.Last night's topic, fire in Paris, Norte Dame Cathedral. Cathedral of Your Heart, build it strong, from within, an Angel for Paris, she says, build it with forgiveness and compassion, so all the sins of man may be washed clean, build it quiet, to keep out all distraction that pulls us away from Love . . . Love, our saving grace. The Cathedral in your Heart is more beautiful than all the finest gems and gold, it is finding Divinity, with the love inside you.
I am off to eastern Europe on August 8th, 2017! Will be on a magical adventure to make new spiritual connections with soul family relations and doing business. My art business has always been driven by my spiritual path and intentions to live fully as my authentic divine self, free from old ways of being that no longer serve. And so with the unique Blessings of the 2017 Lion' Gate Portal and Eclipse energies, I am fully ON, with intentions of living in bliss and gratitude, everyday, for the rest of my life! Aho!
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