Unconditional Love, this card came up again, for my Sunday Twin Flame Message. I know that I picked it a few weeks ago. I am having a lot coming up in my reality about being ignored and unappreciated. It is quite possibly my deepest wound, and probably one of the biggest wounds for the feminine collective. It is being reflected back to me almost every day. I keep trying to get people to listen to me (in the form of wisdom I have to share) and the more I try the more I am ignored. Could it be that I am not reaching for unconditional love, which is the only way to heal this? Well, of course.... but easier said than done. Unconditional Love can be so elusive when you are caught in the pattern of feeling hurt and resentful over the thing that is hurting you, and in my case, being ignored. My mind is full of thoughts about humans that do get all the attention, and why they do. Again, I see charismatic and physically beautiful people as the type of people that get all the attention. When I have wisdom to share that could really help someone, there is always this person there, who is louder than me expressing an opinion that is heard and received, while I receive nothing. This is a reflection of my wounded child that was so drowned out as a child, through living with two very narcissistic females, one sister and my mother. The words “cannot get a word in edgewise” must have been tattooed on my tattered heart, and this tattoo cannot be removed so easily. My Twin Flame is another person that has reflected this wound back to me, in full force. He is so charismatic with people all over the globe just waiting with anticipation for the next piece of wisdom he might share. I have wisdom to share, but this popularity contest of human existence is far beyond it's expiration date, in the reality. I am fed up and I want to break free of the desire to be heard, because this desire is deeply rooted in my wounding. I must unconditionally love the people who ignore me. I repeat, I must unconditionally love the people who ignore me. I have so much to share with the world, but I must release my attachment to being successful at that. Furthermore, we are living in confusing times where everyone has an opinion and advice to give. This is amplified for myself, because most of my friends in the New Age community have a business that is related to healing, and yet they themselves are not healed. Having unconditional love for all this wounded confusion, that is on my plate. I also need to give up the attachment I have to my physical Twin Flame because he may never acknowledge me in this lifetime. I can connect to another aspects of my Twin Flame, the higher dimensional aspect of him who is not in a physical body on the planet. He will listen to me; he does appreciate me, but I currently cannot hear or feel him with the noise of my wounded heart crying out to me. This is my Sunday Twin Flame message. I hope it helps someone. I know it has helped myself, for having processed it, through this writing. If no one reads this then so be it. It does not matter. What matters of my success in feeling unconditional love for my wounded self and other wounded people. On the other side of the coin, my Twin Flame probably has his own problems with being the one that everyone chases after, as if he was their instant fix. So deep is this human charade. The song for this post, 'This Masquerade' by George Benson, and it's about the broken talking stick of my tribe, as it feels like no one is listening to each other. I pray for more strength to love, to really love, and forgive. All will be well, eventually. Big hugs to the ignored or underappreciated, everywhere. I know how you feel.
My Twin Flame message of this Sunday corresponds to my morning dream. I was connecting with the Shiva energy through a dream message. In my dream I was not seeing my physical form while looking into a mirror in the bathroom. I was pure consciousness, not the physical form, and yet at the same time I have a physical form. The two primary forces named ‘Shiva’ and ‘Shakti’ are permanently in an indestructible union. The Shakti energy, (female) was represented in my dream through the dream message of me entering a pool of water. I thought to myself, why are my shoes and clothes on? Again, it was not about my physical form entering water.
Perhaps your Kundalini awakening is close by for you, and coming soon. Perhaps a Kundalini experience of Divine Union involves embracing the mysterious and unknown. In my dream my human self felt the same loneliness it has always felt, by always being alone, and yet I was OK with this. I was seeing a potential sexual partner leaving the building as I looked out the window, symbolic of my desire for a deeper, more meaningful spiritual and sexual experience. Tantric sex is not about two people desiring a regular sexual encounter. It is the two dimensions of life waiting to converge in a divine union within. The Shiva and Shakti union of Twin Flames holds so much power and gentleness, and it feels completely mysterious.
As mundane existence surrounds you, you don't care for it any more. I felt invisible to the other people around me, in my dream. So be it. I am living a Twin Flame Journey.
The divine masculine energy as I experienced last night represented 'the death energy'..... it's part of the process and the feminine assists with patience and compassion. The card picked today, with blues and stars also confirmed the energy of soothing our masculine as he is not separate but one with us. You are experiencing the death energy through your own masculine energy within, and through your Twin Flame. You can connect with the Universe and your Twin Flame through dream-weaving and deep refection. The Death Energy brings new birth...... keep the faith and keep breathing deep. Hugs for your masculine, as he is deep in his pain, to transmute it. Here is a FREE PDF of the guidebook for this deck: